Positive Vibes

I feel better today than I have over the past two days. Not that I've been in a very negative space, but I was feeling a sort of unexplainable malaise, as if something wasn't quite right. I've done a lot of meditating over the past two mornings, really trying to delve into the heart of my discontent and was lead to some answers, which has lead me to some solutions. If I'm in the solution then I'm moving away from the problem, part of which is that I project too much. I will take one issue and build on it until I have this horrifying scenario in mind, a scenario which will probably never happen and is greatly blown out of proportion. Over the past two days I've tried to stay in the "now" and focus on what's in front of me, and also to stay focused on the things that stir my passion, such as my artwork. I really need, more than ever, to be focused on my creativity. It's a gift I was given for a reason, a gift I need to share, and by not dedicating enough time to it I'm driving myself crazy. Vincent Van Gogh used to say that he painted because he had to; it was what fed his soul and not painting would have been like a sort of death. I understand that. I think that the mind of an artist tends to be very sensitive and attuned to all that is, and when we don't pour out our artistic energy it stays inside and turns into an unpleasant static. We need to heed the call of the song our soul sings to us; that's what I got out of the meditation I did this morning, and I think that's something I really need to remember right now.